...has a nice ring, if I don't say so myself!
I have wanted to be a nurse for so many years and I no longer am the student nurse. I still have one more national test to do,but technically speaking, I could practise under an interim license.
Today was a melancholy day for me. I'm not sure why. I spent this past year not having much time to do anything for myself and always planning for the next day. Those days are gone. Alot of my thoughts revolved around the realization that I did, in fact, go for my dream. This makes me kind of teary eyed. Not that I went for my dream but the fact that my dad dying was the real kick in my ass that I needed to go and get to my goal. After his death I realized I couldn't wait for tomorrows, because as the ol' Garth Brooke song goes, "if tomorrow never comes...".
I did tell Scott that I was slightly disappointed(and only slightly..hehe) that there were no trumpets blaring or champagne popping, but he reminded me that the night of January 12th will be of the full fanfare(when me and my fellow gals have finished writing the nationals!). Tomorrow night we are having a quiet celebration, Scott, my mom, the boys and a couple of bottles of our favourite wine(not sure what they are having...haha)...okay maybe not so quiet!!!
So on to my next goal. It's a doozey folks. I know that I can accomplish most anything that I put my mind to and this next one is going to take some extreme effort.
After a year of the widening of the hips and girth of the gut, I am going to do the "Fit by 40". This time I am making it work. Why is it different this time?? Because I believe in myself and know that I can accomplish anything I put my mind to.
This past year was not only about finishing school. It was learning about myself. It was finding out what an amazing group of people I have supporting me. I am blessed with a husband that is loyal, loving, devoted and just plain amazing.(today he is...tomorrow I might be having a major hate on for him...hehe) My children are very adaptable to change. My mom, mother in law and inlaws all went out of there way to help our family out. My friends are fantastic. Not only are they understanding that I basically have had little or nothing to do with them for a year, but they have still encouraged me and listened to me over they phone when I needed to vent or cry. My friend Tanya and I learned so much about each other over this past year. We reconnected and regained a strong and true friendship that will continue to grow and flourish( that might have something to do with giggle fits and incessant chatter over shit, body parts and perhaps the odd dementia patient.) I learned that I am worthy. There were many tears shed, many power prayer sessions that I held in the shower(and truly every time I shower I do say "Thank You Jesus for this hot water and begin my ramble)and many moments of frustration. But with these moments came moments of accomplishment, not only for me but for my family. For example, watching my children became quite eager to make lunches, sweep the floor and make sure the kitchen was tidy, so mommy didn't have to worry about that. Tonight I cried when Gavin came to me and said, "Mommy...so it's true right?? You are a nurse?? Wow...I guess I really feel safe knowing that I have a nurse as a mom to look over me when I am sick!"
But really all I wanted to say was
HELL YEAH I'M a NURSE!!
Remember people..."to infinity and beyond reach for the stars!"