Opening Doors

We were very excited to get a phone call from the preschool yesterday to tell us that there was a one day opening for Gavin. The owner was a little unsure if we wanted to take the opening as it was only one day but we jumped at the opportunity.
Gavin was equally as excited. He phoned his Grandma and Oma yesterday to share his news.
So tonight we were going over his manners. Gavin says his "thank you's" and "pleases" but many times he has been known to say "gimme have" when he wants you to get him something.
"Mommy, gimme have a cookie?
Another one liner he says is, "what the heck is that?"
So needless to say I was giving him a quick overhaul on what was appropriate to say and what wasn't tonight.
"So Gav remember to say thank you and Please!" I said.
He nodded.
"So if you want a certain toy what will you say?" I questioned.
"Gimme have that toy, pease!" he said.
I struggled not to smile. "No sweetie you will say, may I please have that toy!"
"Okay." he nodded.
I didn't want to stress my poor sweet three year old anymore so I thought that was enough going over his manners.
"So Gavin you know your manners?" I said in a cheery voice.
"Mommy what the heck is a manners?" he said.
Scott started to laugh.
"Gavin will you remember to say your please and thank yous?" I asked.
"I dunno."he said.
Well I am trying!! My mom bought him a new outfit to wear to his first day of preschool. Tonight we packed his snack in his new spiderman lunch bag his Grandma bought him and we put in his indoor shoes in his little backpack.
Both Scott and I were feeling a little emo. A good kind of emo.
Scott said to me tonight, "you mean you don't stay with him for 2 and a half hours...he's on his own?"
"Yeah. I think he'll be okay but I know that I am going to shed a couple of tears!"I replied.
I love my job as a SAHM. There are days when I am overwhelmed and wishing I can take some holiday time or sick leave, but I have been given the most amazing opportunity by being able to stay at home with my 3 boys. I realize that as my youngest baby is growing up before my eyes, my life is changing. Opportunities are in front of me. Change is good, but still it is the unknown that frightens me.
Sometimes I think why when I am perfectly content in my life would I want to go back to school and get a career? Other times I think if I have problems organizing my simple life now I cannot imagine what will happen if you throw in mommy student + wife/lover, mother, housekeeper, cook....
I feel I have been so blessed to have been able to be a SAHM , but there is another chapter in my life that is ready to be opened.
So 2007 is the year of the Student Mommies. I personally know 2 friends going back to school next September (one who will be my partner in crime in the same program)and one friend who is almost at her educational goal.
So as I send my little boy into the doors of his new classroom and into his new role as a preschool student, I am not only opening the doors for him but for me as well.
Good night!
Jenny