Well my weight loss has been going good...slow and steady. Sometimes I am frustrated at how slow the process has been. The good thing is that yesterday I went shopping and had to buy new jeans. My jeans were way too big for me, so that is always a good thing...at least I'm seeing results.
Like I said I went shopping with my mom and Gavin yesterday. My mom wanted to treat Gavin to McYucky's so I allowed her to do so. It's been a long time since we've been in there. I had 2 Chicken fajitas, no fries and some water. So I was happy with that choice.
I didn't work out yesterday, because it was chaotic. I spent the day shopping, then I had a Open House at the school and then I had to go to Kitimat. (In between these I dyed my hair). So no time for the workout yesterday.
I am working out after dinner tonight.
Even though I can see results I still look in the mirror and am completely disgusted with how I look. Why did I allow myself to get so bloody fat? It's frustrating.....
Oh well, I know that I am responsible for who I am and what I have become so I have no one to blame but myself. This is a constant struggle...why did I not take pride in who I was??? Anyhow the past is the past....
I feel good...strong...but I struggle every day.
The joys of letting yourself go!!!
Have a great day!!
Jenny
3 years ago
3 comments:
Don't be so hard on yourself.
I think the reason things get so "out of hand" is because after we have kids, and they're still so very dependent on us, we put our lives aside and concentrate on them and don't see how we're changing...physically. But we're doing what we're suppose to at the time. But as they get older, more independent, we start to focus on ourselves more and see what we've become. Not that we've become anything bad, but we haven't focused on ourselves and our own health for so many years that it shows and it seems like it happened over night...which of course it didn't, but thats the way it feels. I think there are so many of us out there that wonder how we ended up the way we have. But we all need to give ourselves a break. We were (and are still) raising kids. But as time goes by, they need us less (yes, its sad) and once again we are given the opportunity to do something for ourselves. Now is our time, and its going to take exactly that...time. But its worth it. We didn't become this way over night, and its not going to change over night either...but now, we have the chance to change things for the better.
Keep your chin up, you're atleast doing something, not everyone can say that. Just give it time. But don't give up!
Hey There Jenny.......how will you ever know success if you never experience failure? Just keep that in mind when you go to beat yourself up......the end result will be amazing!
Blessings
I agree with Tanya, when you start to put yourself first you will notice many areas in which you have neglected your self. I'm proud of you for taking charge and taking back your life. The benefits of living a healthier lifestyle will not only help you but will be great for your family. And, you are doing it the RIGHT way, not the hard way (even though it is hard!!) Keep telling yourself that!
I haven't worked out in eleven days, and I feel it.
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